Apple released iOS 11.3 today, and along with a slew of other fun additions, the update includes a new feature: Health Records. If you're a patient within certain health systems -- like Duke, NYU Langone, Stanford and Yale -- you can view your medical records on your iPhone. Apple announced the new feature months ago, but now we know how Health Records will work. Predictably, it's located within the Health app for easy access. Ideally this keeps the info handy for the patient to view and hand over to doctors -- which is easier than carrying around an entire medical file.
If you're currently seeing a therapist, I encourage you to spend more time talking about how to manage the overwhelming sense of dread that arises when you contemplate changing fields. If you're not, I think you should consider seeing one! What you're describing doesn't sound workable in the long term, and I think it would be better for both you and the people you work with if you figure out an alternate career move. It may be that you don't have to switch fields entirely--you could look for another job within your current organization where you don't have to interact with patients, something that's lower-stress and doesn't make you feel overwhelmed and resentful all the time.
About half of all harm that comes to patients as a result of medical care is preventable, according to a review of 70 studies involving more than 330,000 patients in hospitals, specialty clinics and primary care facilities around the world. Maria Panagioti at the University of Manchester, UK, and her colleagues found that about 12 per cent of people experience either physical, emotional or social harm while seeking medical care, and about 6 per cent overall experienced harm that was preventable.